I can't fake another smile
I can't fake like I'm alright
Ooh, ah (ooh, ah)
And I won't say I'm feeling fine
After what I been through, I can't lie
Ooh, ah (ooh, ah)
Fuck a fake smile, smile
Fuck a fake smile, fake smile🎶
Women are constantly told to smile, even when we are hurting, when we are broken, when we have nothing else to give.
Today is @bell_letstalk day and like clockwork, January is always the bluest for me.
The past few years I have been very open with my struggles with anxiety, depression, ptsd, and S.A.D and I never want the conversation to end. It has taken me a long time to get to where I am in feeling comfortable sharing my struggles, letting people know I need to cancel a meeting or social plans because I am feeling some type of way.
But it hasn’t and always isn’t this easy. The stigma still exists. The fear. The judgement. The shame. I still have times when I cannot articulate why I am feeling down, times when I feel shame for feeling like this AGAIN and don’t want to burden my loved ones, or feeling shook with anxiety and dreading faking a smile, cuz why can’t I just be happy already?! The lesson is I am still a work in progress and trying and being kind and patience with myself is always the answer.💕
If you are reading this and you have never been able to be open or share with your loved ones your struggles, that is okay. You don’t have to do anything you don’t want or can’t do right now. I really hope one day you can find that support system, even if it is just one person, a friend, a family member, a doctor, a stranger, as it has been truly life changing for me to have people I can open up to or even just be silent with. ❤️
Even if we don’t know each other, I am here for you and always open and available to give you my time to speak, vent, and lean on. Just don’t let anyone make you feel you have to fake smile anymore. It’s EXHAUSTING! ❤️